My Giuliana Stories.....

Fuhh~~Fuhh~~~
tiup skit dah berhabuk dah ni.....

I took an ages to updating my entry since the past 1 year.

What I want you guys to know that I am ongoing infertility treatment at Putrajaya Goverment Hospital which was recommended by hubby's cousins.
Since pregnancy is my desire so, I started the treatment in May 2010, it was quite very long procedure because i need to keep track my menses every month.

I'm having Policystic Ovarian Syndrome.
Patient with PCO disorder too much of male hormone (testosterone) from their ovaries.

The treatment begins with the mild fertility pills, taking clomid 50mg from day 2 to day 6 and day 10 need to scan how the follicles respond to the drugs and Day 14 to keep track whether your follicle meet the perfect size for fertilize.
This is my first cycle which is failed.

I need to add the dosage of drugs from 50mg to 100mg and if this cycle not successful need to change the dosage of clomid to 150mg. If ovulation not occurred on maximum clomiphene therapy then treatment with the injectable fertility drugs is usually more successful(I think this what Giuliana did in Giuliana and Bill, their first step to get pregnancy). Very the Giuliana OK. The injectable drugs are much more expensive and carry the risk of multiple birth.

Adoption is an option I always consider but I cant help myself, the desire of getting my own child. I believe most of the married couples have the same ideas as mine.

I dont know how many women out there deals with this kind of things but I'm not that strong enough to answer everytime people asking me such of questions. Especially time kat opis orang dok citer pasal anak 24/7. Serious. Migraine.
Ahahahhahahah!!!!!!
I'm trying to be honest on my entry ok.


Love ya~~

Me in writing again....

very soon darling......

Life...

I nearly gave up on my life this morning......every week ada je problem yang baru... Hoping for someone to pujuk me and comfort me... tapi hampeh.... pujuk diri sendiri....
again
and again....
and again....

Why I can't have what I really want???
I pray hard....
I do my best.....

If someone live their life happily every single day....please show me how?

Boleh ke someone offer me jadi my sunshine everyday???? Tired of being me.....

Suddenly I received this forward e-mail which is really made my day and made me think twice.

Life gives Answers in Three ways,
It says YES and gives Whatever u Want,
It says NO and gives u Something Better
It says Wait and gives u the Best

Happy???

I always wonder if i could be happy again like before. I know everyday there are always have a chances to be better. Somehow I am stuck in my very own world.

I feel......
Nothing great of being me.
Tired of everything.
A lot of sacrificing.
A lot of pampering and comforting others.
Too much supporting others.

I really missed the old me. I am so confused. Is it because of the decision i have already made or it has been written. I thought can get my life happy in the end but its even tougher

Masalah tak pernah habis..........
ada je.........
and I am tired of being me........

Pelik tapi benar

Ada 1 jenis spesies manusia yg memang keje dia menyakitkan hati orang ataupon mmg keje dia top up dosa diri sendiri dengan sakitkan hati orang lain. Tak cukup2 dari dulu menyakitkan hati. Terasa perangai mu macam Syaitan pun ada. Tolong la sesiapa beritahu dia yang saya dah tiada lagi dimuka bumi ini..........

Tolong la.....sebab saya rasa saya dah takde kena mengena dengan hidup kamu dan saya ini banyak sangat benda yang sangat dan perlu saya kisah kan.

Purposely private message sebab nak tunjuk yang diri kamu baik it wasn't a good idea because I'd never saw anything good in you. Tolong la berhenti berlagak innocent...nak muntah.......Kalau nak berlagak innocent pon tolong la jangan dengan saya.

OK....its even you were changed just keep it yourself la....mana la tau memang Allah dah buka kan pintu hati dia nak bertaubat.....but you don't have to tell the whole world and if you want to lantak la....bagitahu la sesapa except me.....I don't wanna know anything about you..... Letihla.....

If you were happy with your life lantak la......and if you not pon lantak la....ada ke i kisah????hmmmm.....boring kan orang macam ni????I pun agak bodoh dan jahil la sebab sudi berkawan dengan manusia spesies macam ni.......

Tolong la....kan dulu kamu sudah maki2 saya to back off from your life. Kan kamu sudah berjanji pada diri kamu yang kamu takkan mengenali diri saya. Apa lagi yang kamu mahu.......


Please somebody tell him that i am dead.......

Sigh~~~

ohhhhh~~~

Sigh again~~

Try..........

A short conversation between A, B and C

A : In my life.....I always try my best....

B : But I think If you always try that's the best.....right??

C : Yeah.....everyday there's a chance to be better...... :)

11 Ramadhan....

Lately ada bende yang best ada gak bende yg tak berapa nak best. Yang best nye last weekend dapat balik JB berbuka puasa bersama family Johor secara tak lansung dapat makan masakan mak yang sedap banget. Oh ya... masa balik JB hari tu my cousin and her FH followin g us to JB...Kenal kenal JB la kononnya.... Dapat jumpa justin....tp tak best sbb kejap sgt.....banyak bende nak borak tapi.....time sangat limited.....

Best jugak dapat pergi Danga bay....watching zoo at night....macam- macam ada tiger, elephant, horses, snakes (euuuuwww) and banyak lagi bende yang pelik2...memang la zoo tu agak kecil tapi best sebab mood berchenta kot..hahahhahah...sure korang muntah ....lepak santai dgn my love one....kalau single dulu lepak gedik santai la kan....skang ni kene behave sikit.......

Yang tak best plak terasa someone stabbing behind my back.. Sakit sebab tengah control untuk tak jadi pendendam.....Sebab saya tak layak menghukumi sesapa pun.....walaupun dia adalah org yang paling dekat dengan kita.....tatau apa motif dia berbuat sedemikian???cemburukah???cemburu dengan saya yang berusaha gigih???Serious rasa seperti teraniaya.......

Waiting for my sister, Iqah come to my house for her long weekend till Monday sebab Penang Monday cuti Nuzul Quran. Dia dah buat wish list dah nak makan apa for her buka puasa. Hubby might be busy this saturday for a few of appointment. I think i might be join him tapi tengokla....rumah macam disaster sempat kemas sikit2 je....takkan la nak tinggal kan Iqah sorang2 duduk rumah........

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