Middle crisis

I'm out of touch to typing this lately. It has been super hectic at work plus there's a lot of thing happened was messing up my freaking mind.

I'm in the middle crisis between work and my sayang. Being super busy at work and missed understanding with him. Its tiring me all the time. For the last two weeks after 'Meet the parents session' ( this is what shasha said) we turned into a small fight which is baru ok for last few days after I realise how much I need him in my life. He's not even tried out to pujuk me. He's the type, who will leave me in a small room when i get mad with him till I find the answer for what I'm asking for. I know I need more patience for being with him. Long distance, a logical view person and bla bla. I think same goes with him and still stand to layan my sensitiveness.

I turned to the other madness when he ask me whether I trust him. Of course I do trust him even I don't even show him how I trust him. Suddenly he ask me "Please don't trust man and not even him". I felt like duh!! Jumped to the other heart sick. How will I live with a man who I don't trust? How should I spend the rest of life with a man who ask me not to trust him. A guy who will be my guardian, protect me and for me to feel at ease and secure. There must be a reason kenapa Allah menciptakan nafsu, akal, naluri dan Kitab Nya sama juga kenapa adanya Hawa selepas wujudnya Adam. Kita wajib percaya kepada Allah but its not with put everything aside dan bukan dengan percaya dan berserah bulat bulat.

I'm putting myself into a small room to pujuk myself. I need to be alone to gather some strength from my stressed.

'Meet the parents session' goes very well. I didn't expect emak and ayah seems very like him which is I never saw he treated my boyfriend in that way I mean they being very kind. A credit to my sayang who can capture my parent's heart very well.