Double Stress

I'm so fucking busy at work yesterday. Plus a mission to help my new bos restrusture and get everything done within short period. My ex-file just gimme some headache which is I tak larat nak layan. Usually all the msg ke apa ke I mmg terus je delete tp smalam mcm terbaca. Duh!! sangat la pedas kan. In the first thing why did I delete the things because I knew it will affect my mood, self-esteem and bla bla bla. I got no time to reply all his words because I know It will getting worst plus memang dia sentiasa betul punya. I tell you when someone really irritates and annoyed you and you are powerless to fight back sure la rasa berbuku kat dalam hati plus sure you rasa macam bengang kan?? The same thing happened to me I can't voice it out. Pressure keje lagi. I try to hide from my sayang tp he always have the sense of me(which is good ya) then he asked me why? I told him bla bla bla bla. He get mad because selalu sangat my ex-file turned me down. Makin diam makin naik minyak dia. Darling, my sayang not try to be super duper hero ke or what la. He try to protect me. kesian with me super pressure kena buli at work then nak settle a lot of things then suddenly this blood suckers turned me down plus everytime had fight with my ex-files I diam je tak balas sure la mamat ni pijak kepala . sure la my sayang angin. He asked the phone number. I told him nanti you make thing worst. If I tak kasi nanti dia fikir macam2 pasal I. I just gave to him but please dont make thing worst because the ex-files type yg berani kerana salah plus memang dia ada power to turned me down. You don't even know him.

So, my sayang call him but I went to shower to wash my hair because I felt itchy after makan kebab yang super pedas (I had syndrome bila makan pedas kepala terasa gatal).My exfile call my mobile I did not pick up because I'm in the shower. So, this guy yang sangat la tidak sabar call my house and talked to my mum. I don't know what he kelepet my mom and his mom. Percaya gila la yang dia sangat baik and I ni super Bitch. I told you what mula mula I marah la kat my sayang sebab my mum told me my sayang give the exfile warning. I get shocked la kan which is from what I know my sayang. dia bukan jenis yang warning orang tak tentu hala. Then Stitch call me, I voice out

Me: Yang si Panjang (bukan nama sebenar) pun satu dah kata sangat dah si A*** mcm tu tak nak caya. apa tah keje dia gi warning plak. sure la mamat tu gelabah kan.

Stitch: No, he told me kalau nak kawan cakap elok elok dia tak kisah.

I know my sayang well. Everyone know how is my ex. I wished i'd never met him. As if Stitch told me earlier who the hell was him. for sure I try to get rid from him. Ayat power mulut manis. mmg aku kene kelepet dengan raja kelepet la kan.

Dia slalu cerita pasal semua mangsa-mangsa dia which is I never expect i'll be on the list. At last aku terkena juga la.

Kalau dia waras sure dia tau kenapa I never treated him baik baik. Always kasar kasar. Sebab What he have done to me. sangat kejam. Bachul la kan such a pathetic looser. Stitch advice me to meet him its better. bukan aku yang takut. dia yang bachul. His reason mak i dah larang u. mak i la. konon la alim. knp tak ckp dgn mak u all the things that u've did to me. I don't understand knp dia tak pernah rasa bersalah and always looked down to me. He win. alasan bachul dia nanti kene pukul. No worries I tau u memang lembek. I bukan manusia takde hati perut tapi gila ke nak pukul anak orang yang sangat lembek.

I told you I dont need anything from you. so, just back off la. ni nak doa kebahagiaan la. I dont need that kind of thing from you. As a friends memang useless la. Masa minta tolong beriya la kan. Bila I minta tolong dengan megah dia kata taknak plus bahasakan I lagi. siotkan? I told u Pathetic looser. Dia kata dah jumpa jalan la what ever tapi setelah berjuta lemon kali aku kena tidak mungkin la aku nak percaya lagi. Thought of forgive and forget you tp tau hati dia yang sangat busuk oh tidakla. Tiada maaf bagimu. Esok memang tak de lagi dah. Tidak perlu berlagak baik. tidak perlu itu dan ini seperti kau mahu kan aku dengan alasan sakit barah otak hidup hanya tinggal 6bln. Pathetic looser.


Urghhhhh~~~stress yg berdouble double