tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69376309833163332902024-03-14T18:59:43.882+08:00A Reflection Of My LifeA small room to bla bla blaUnknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger211125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-4389224045773542672011-05-08T18:32:00.003+08:002011-05-14T10:33:56.636+08:00My experienced for IUI (intra-uterine insemination)<div>Having this PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) not as easy you might be thinking. I knew it painless but it almost killing me. Shoot a question like "Anak skang dah berapa?" or "Knp tak ada anak lagi" hurting and killing me the most. Ada juga certain people yang dont even know me well pastu throw me mean words like "Azy dah hilang naluri keibuan sebab tak ada anak lagi" this was what he told my other half and it was killing me the most untill now. Another thing when my colleague 24/7 asyik la cerita pasal anak la pasal her siblings yg nak getting pregnant la..baby on the way la..she keep on repeating again and again. If let say once in a while i just dont mind ni like everyday. Annoying gile!!! Kat rumah tak blh ke share the story dengan your other half.<br /></div><br /><div></div>The desire to get a baby by own sangat sangat tinggi. I did try few times had a conversation with my other half and closest friend but it won't help much but a trillion thanks to closest friend and my other half because trying to help and be there for me. Apologies for being extra sensitive. I cant stop thinking to get baby on my own. Its a stage of difficulties which totally I can't handle it anymore. You may have 1001 thinking about me but trust me its even tougher than what you ever think. For a these while memang saya struggle bersabar. But this time nak jumpa relatives pun rasa malas suddenly paranoid if people might asking me about anak. Sigh...<br /><br />I am having my IUI (intra-uterine insemination)<b id="yui_3_3_0_1_1305338026997181"> </b>procedure last Wednesday. This procedure is a procedure used to help people who have been unable to conceive on their own become pregnant. Its consider painless and a very short procedure something similar to Paps smear. Its a procedure which was performed by threading a very thin flexible catheter through the cervix and injecting washed sperm directly into the uterus<span style="font-family:Arial, Helvetica, San Serif, Gill Sans;font-size:85%;">.</span> During or after the IUI procedure you might have some of discomfort such as cramping and minor injury to the cervix that leads to bleeding or spotting. The whole process takes about 40minutes to 1 hours. The IUI process about 15 minutes and afterward you need to have rest about 40 minutes. After the IUI I had cramps on my right ovary, i think its where my mature follicles was release. A little bit difficult for me to walk and sit in the office.<br /><br />I pray hard for having a successfully procedure. I hope if I can conceive and become pregnant and have such a healthy and beautiful baby on my own.<br /><br /><br /><br /><div><br /></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-50700281587005174212011-04-11T20:01:00.002+08:002011-04-11T20:05:32.886+08:00KusutLately ni rasa kusut semacam Banyak mengelamun...buat silap at work which was cost you some amount... terlajak....supposed fetched hubby at work tapi boleh plak tersampai rumah... tottaly demotivated. The desire yang mengatasi segala-galanya... I'm hopelessUnknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-79891687476293500812011-03-25T23:22:00.005+08:002011-03-26T10:45:47.119+08:00Pregnancy Planning : Cycle 3 (Day 1)Tomorrow will start my day 2 and i might taking clomide 100mg since my follicles respond to that dosage. Waiting for my follicles size result on day 10 and day 13 Full tracking via ultrasound.<br /><br />I need 110 % moral support from my bed mate.<br /><br />I need like 1001 sweet memories and happy moment to have a lot of happy thought.<br /><br />I need 10001 jokes to make me laugh and distress myself<br /><br />I need a trillion one smile to fade all my sadness away.....<br /><br />Its all I need at this moment.<br /><br />From day 1 i knew the result was failed i wont have a tears in front of him. Pretend that I am strong enough to face this kind of situation. He saying that "Allah knows why" and dont be sad. "KITA PUNYA USAHA ALLAH PUNYA KUASA"Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-52588374894130279132011-03-23T21:23:00.003+08:002011-03-23T21:27:56.234+08:00Mission : FailedMy pregnancy planning cycle 2 was failed<br />Another frustration just begin...............Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-26793873327712761532011-03-09T21:10:00.004+08:002011-03-09T22:06:49.024+08:00Pregnancy Planning (Cycle 2)Subfertility : 2years +<br />Clinical Diagnosis: PCOS<br />Drug Regiment : Clomid 100mg (Day 2 - Day6)<br />Estradiol (Day 2-Day14)<br /><br />I have 3 perfect follicles size on my left ovary on my day 10, I was like 'wow bestnye'. On my day 14 I only have 1 perfect follicle on my right ovary (20mm x 25mm). Supposedly the doctor's required 2 but since I only have 1 she decided to break the follicle by giving me a shot. 36hours after the shot requires me to be with him (u know what i mean).<br /><br />I really hope this cycle will succeed, I really don't want to go through to the next round with IUI or IVF things. I really don't know how to cope with this kind of failure since I struggle to conceive myself and went through like 1001 obstacles.<br /><br />I really wanna have mine by my own. I can't bear with a full bag of envies looking at others with their baby on the way or they were already have. I wanna stop the feelings of menyusahkan everytime he send me up for medical appointment.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-1865293768962676802011-03-03T19:11:00.002+08:002011-03-03T20:05:19.490+08:00Tomorrow will be my day 10 on my 2nd cycle. Hopefully the eggs will grow bigger than last time. I wanna have perfect size during my day 14.<br /><br />Tips to spice up your love :<br /><br />- recall all the sweets memories together such as<br />1. your first honeymoon.<br />2. The very first time he turns you on.<br />3. the sexiest thing he ever done for you.<br />4. your first kiss with him.<br />5. the best sex position.<br /><br />Its all about happy thought. Trust me you will destress yourself and spice up your relationship.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-65914407221944052702011-02-17T19:44:00.003+08:002011-02-17T19:49:26.694+08:00Honeymoon Desert<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVYHNo13UIae7OZzZ8lrv3dw57d3lql_5dQD4n0Pjms16CDRkVTgtKMggbygdqsxlfEQFX9IoPPfeOdDYMMIw8SQs2YN-1ClvjCosooN_uHo3gRZ4uq86csGy1mFp3S6lI-fHN2Xlg17Y/s1600/desert.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 265px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5574623927918041090" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiVYHNo13UIae7OZzZ8lrv3dw57d3lql_5dQD4n0Pjms16CDRkVTgtKMggbygdqsxlfEQFX9IoPPfeOdDYMMIw8SQs2YN-1ClvjCosooN_uHo3gRZ4uq86csGy1mFp3S6lI-fHN2Xlg17Y/s400/desert.jpg" /></a><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEin0S4BOrMunR5hXNco6DmRIBwhCS322H7z3L05ekfeRioVaGO28MZsEuSxWQtzaVBDM7IoDysuLp7QXiYOjF107ACNoXgu5H3p1K103MxTWitvHs6050nIydYgQQ384HgnxU7Yl6KFcMA/s1600/desert+3.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 266px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5574623846027324866" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEin0S4BOrMunR5hXNco6DmRIBwhCS322H7z3L05ekfeRioVaGO28MZsEuSxWQtzaVBDM7IoDysuLp7QXiYOjF107ACNoXgu5H3p1K103MxTWitvHs6050nIydYgQQ384HgnxU7Yl6KFcMA/s400/desert+3.jpg" /></a><br /><br /><div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5My2BJHGzg5FJff_djqeFa7l-etHeza6voicRPVAjrSxTovDy-iEyMbhc_eKiPt_BpytqTg0cdQL8eX6fS_A4chIMJdVoOrmfFbRw091jRcwFIRt0WWkbmAGaYfERFuoKqODW5x5RAbM/s1600/desert+2.jpg"><img style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 265px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5574623759388318050" border="0" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5My2BJHGzg5FJff_djqeFa7l-etHeza6voicRPVAjrSxTovDy-iEyMbhc_eKiPt_BpytqTg0cdQL8eX6fS_A4chIMJdVoOrmfFbRw091jRcwFIRt0WWkbmAGaYfERFuoKqODW5x5RAbM/s400/desert+2.jpg" /></a> Agak-agak....if Im not a pregnant woman ada tak orang nak bawa I makan semua ni....</div><div>Look yummy la..........</div><div>Oh please.....</div><div>drooling~~~<br /><br /><br /></div><div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-91799385753633681212011-02-05T19:39:00.007+08:002011-02-19T00:11:25.720+08:00My Giuliana Stories.....Fuhh~~Fuhh~~~<br />tiup skit dah berhabuk dah ni.....<br /><br />I took an ages to updating my entry since the past 1 year.<br /><br />What I want you guys to know that I am ongoing infertility treatment at Putrajaya Goverment Hospital which was recommended by hubby's cousins.<br />Since pregnancy is my desire so, I started the treatment in May 2010, it was quite very long procedure because i need to keep track my menses every month.<br /><br />I'm having Policystic Ovarian Syndrome.<br />Patient with PCO <span style="color:#000000;">disorder</span> too much of male hormone (testosterone) from their ovaries.<br /><br />The treatment begins with the mild fertility pills, taking clomid 50mg from day 2 to day 6 and day 10 need to scan how the follicles respond to the drugs and Day 14 to keep track whether your follicle meet the perfect size for fertilize.<br />This is my first cycle which is failed.<br /><br />I need to add the dosage of drugs from 50mg to 100mg and if this cycle not successful need to change the dosage of clomid to 150mg. If ovulation not occurred on maximum clomiphene therapy then treatment with the injectable fertility drugs is usually more successful(I think this what Giuliana did in Giuliana and Bill, their first step to get pregnancy). Very the Giuliana OK. The injectable drugs are much more expensive and carry the risk of multiple birth.<br /><br />Adoption is an option I always consider but I cant help myself, the desire of getting my own child. I believe most of the married couples have the same ideas as mine.<br /><br />I dont know how many women out there deals with this kind of things but I'm not that strong enough to answer everytime people asking me such of questions. Especially time kat opis orang dok citer pasal anak 24/7. Serious. Migraine.<br />Ahahahhahahah!!!!!!<br />I'm trying to be honest on my entry ok.<br /><br /><br />Love ya~~Unknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-33001535281708547212010-12-25T22:35:00.001+08:002011-02-03T01:45:02.678+08:00Me in writing again....<br /><br />very soon darling......Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-72706502956209749422009-11-12T10:01:00.004+08:002009-11-12T10:49:29.572+08:00Life...I nearly gave up on my life this morning......every week ada je problem yang baru... Hoping for someone to pujuk me and comfort me... tapi hampeh.... pujuk diri sendiri....<br />again<br />and again....<br />and again....<br /><br />Why I can't have what I really want???<br />I pray hard....<br />I do my best.....<br /><br />If someone live their life happily every single day....please show me how?<br /><br />Boleh ke someone offer me jadi my sunshine everyday???? Tired of being me.....<br /><br />Suddenly I received this forward e-mail which is really made my day and made me think twice.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><b><span style=";font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:180%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:18pt;" >L</span></span></b>ife gives Answers in Three ways,<br /><b><span style="font-weight: bold;">I</span></b>t says <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">Y</span></b>ES and gives <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">W</span></b>hatever u Want,<span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="font-size:18pt;"> </span></span><br /><b><span style="font-weight: bold;">I</span></b>t says <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">N</span></b>O and gives u <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">S</span></b>omething Better<span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="font-size:18pt;"> </span></span><br /><b><span style="font-weight: bold;">I</span></b>t says <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">W</span></b>ait and gives u the <b><span style="font-weight: bold;">B</span></b>est </div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-45806981408246293762009-10-28T10:08:00.004+08:002009-11-02T09:56:56.840+08:00Happy???I always wonder if i could be happy again like before. I know everyday there are always have a chances to be better. Somehow I am stuck in my very own world.<br /><br />I feel......<br />Nothing great of being me.<br />Tired of everything.<br />A lot of sacrificing.<br />A lot of pampering and comforting others.<br />Too much supporting others.<br /><br />I really missed the old me. I am so confused. Is it because of the decision i have already made or it has been written. I thought can get my life happy in the end but its even tougher<br /><br />Masalah tak pernah habis..........<br />ada je.........<br />and I am tired of being me........Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-41059185407562560962009-10-12T14:49:00.005+08:002009-10-13T09:19:53.604+08:00Pelik tapi benarAda 1 jenis spesies manusia yg memang keje dia menyakitkan hati orang ataupon mmg keje dia top up dosa diri sendiri dengan sakitkan hati orang lain. Tak cukup2 dari dulu menyakitkan hati. Terasa perangai mu macam Syaitan pun ada. Tolong la sesiapa beritahu dia yang saya dah tiada lagi dimuka bumi ini..........<br /><br />Tolong la.....sebab saya rasa saya dah takde kena mengena dengan hidup kamu dan saya ini banyak sangat benda yang sangat dan perlu saya kisah kan.<br /><br />Purposely private message sebab nak tunjuk yang diri kamu baik it wasn't a good idea because I'd never saw anything good in you. Tolong la berhenti berlagak innocent...nak muntah.......Kalau nak berlagak innocent pon tolong la jangan dengan saya.<br /><br />OK....its even you were changed just keep it yourself la....mana la tau memang Allah dah buka kan pintu hati dia nak bertaubat.....but you don't have to tell the whole world and if you want to lantak la....bagitahu la sesapa except me.....I don't wanna know anything about you..... Letihla.....<br /><br />If you were happy with your life lantak la......and if you not pon lantak la....ada ke i kisah????hmmmm.....boring kan orang macam ni????I pun agak bodoh dan jahil la sebab sudi berkawan dengan manusia spesies macam ni.......<br /><br />Tolong la....kan dulu kamu sudah maki2 saya to back off from your life. Kan kamu sudah berjanji pada diri kamu yang kamu takkan mengenali diri saya. Apa lagi yang kamu mahu.......<br /><br /><br />Please somebody tell him that i am dead.......<br /><br />Sigh~~~<br /><br />ohhhhh~~~<br /><br />Sigh again~~Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-74270549526212031512009-09-29T09:08:00.002+08:002009-09-29T09:13:29.952+08:00Try..........<span style="color: rgb(102, 0, 204);font-size:78%;" >A short conversation between A, B and C</span><br /><br />A : In my life.....I always try my best....<br /><br />B : But I think If you always try that's the best.....right??<br /><br />C : Yeah.....everyday there's a chance to be better...... :)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-59235119918656817872009-09-02T14:55:00.008+08:002009-09-03T11:45:12.618+08:0011 Ramadhan....Lately ada bende yang best ada gak bende yg tak berapa nak best. Yang best nye last weekend dapat balik JB berbuka puasa bersama family Johor secara tak lansung dapat makan masakan mak yang sedap banget. Oh ya... masa balik JB hari tu my cousin and her FH followin g us to JB...Kenal kenal JB la kononnya.... Dapat jumpa justin....tp tak best sbb kejap sgt.....banyak bende nak borak tapi.....time sangat limited.....<br /><br />Best jugak dapat pergi Danga bay....watching zoo at night....macam- macam ada tiger, elephant, horses, snakes (euuuuwww) and banyak lagi bende yang pelik2...memang la zoo tu agak kecil tapi best sebab mood berchenta kot..hahahhahah...sure korang muntah ....lepak santai dgn my love one....kalau single dulu lepak gedik santai la kan....skang ni kene behave sikit.......<br /><br />Yang tak best plak terasa someone stabbing behind my back.. Sakit sebab tengah control untuk tak jadi pendendam.....Sebab saya tak layak menghukumi sesapa pun.....walaupun dia adalah org yang paling dekat dengan kita.....tatau apa motif dia berbuat sedemikian???cemburukah???cemburu dengan saya yang berusaha gigih???Serious rasa seperti teraniaya.......<br /><br />Waiting for my sister, Iqah come to my house for her long weekend till Monday sebab Penang Monday cuti Nuzul Quran. Dia dah buat wish list dah nak makan apa for her buka puasa. Hubby might be busy this saturday for a few of appointment. I think i might be join him tapi tengokla....rumah macam disaster sempat kemas sikit2 je....takkan la nak tinggal kan Iqah sorang2 duduk rumah........<br /><br />Kenapakah setiap hari adalah hari malas bagi saya?Perlukan suntikan rajin untuk aktif semula.......Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-3620342828926971632009-08-27T12:08:00.003+08:002009-08-27T12:44:51.704+08:006 RamadhanYesterday I had my chance to break fast with my family ayah, mak, qilah and nenek. Wah terasa sungguh seronot sekali. They were visited cik zali and stay at cik zali's place in Putrajaya.<br />Best sangat......dapat makan ayam golek, ikan bakar, murtabak rojak singapore, popiah dan mcm2 lagi la kuih muih yg tatau apa kenamanye.....<br /><br />Siap sempat cut my youngest sister's hair......<br /><br />Sangat takde hati nak keje......seriyes....cepat la semua ni berakhir....<br />rasa mcm dah tak larat sangat2<br />I really really cannot take it anymore.......<br /><br />Love and Luck....<br />Can i have both more and more???<br />Please........I pray for it everyday.....<br />Yes... I really want it......I really wish for it.....Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-56882491355666391532009-08-26T10:56:00.004+08:002009-08-26T11:41:28.865+08:005 Ramadhan......Seriously....rasa memang takde mood nak keje sini dah........<br />waiting for my replacement...<br />Kalau ikutkan hati nak blah mcm tu je la kan...tp mcm kesian la plak.......<br />My heart not here anymore.......going somewhere else....<br />I'm not in the mood...<br />banyak sangat bende yang jadi within this month.....especially financial.....serious tak de mood.....kalau la boleh patah balik and make the right choice...kan ke bagus..... tapi what's have been done can't be undone......<br />Kalaulah ada orang yg boleh mendengar keluhan hati saya........<br />Kalaulah ada yang boleh meringankan bebanan yag saya tanggung.....<br />Kalaulah mereka tahu apa yang saya rasa........<br />Kalaulah ada sedikit kemanisan yang boleh melegakan hati saya.......<br />Kalaulah semua ni boleh berakhir sekelip mata.......<br /><br />Semalam visit cik zali, kesian dia.....he was admitted kat ICU Hospital Serdang. He is too skinny...so weak..... Hopefully cepat la dia sembuh...Sangat tak sanggup melihat dia bersama wayar2 yang ada kat angota dia........<br />Kesian kat cik Jun(the wifey) jugak sebab dia pon tak berapa sihat tapi dia sangat tabah nak tgk suami dia sihat.......Pengorbanan si isteri......<br /><br />Kat rumah dah sehari takde air......the whole apartment tu takde air.....without notice plak tu....gile tak????nasib baik la ada air yang saya tadah sebab tetibe je air kecik besar kecik besar....<br />tapi.....mcmana nak cuci baju ni......<br />masa ni la mengharapkan kalau la ada sungai kat depan rumah kan senang........<br /><br />Waiting for a long weekend....nak balik jb this friday...maybe alyn and her fiance will be following us to JB jugak......<br /><br />balik JB....<br />nak air kathira abu bakar.........<br />roti jala yang emak buat.......<br />murtabak yg besar tu.......<br />ayam percik jugak......<br /><br />Semoga berjaya......tapi selalu kalau balik JB benda yg kita nak tu mcm payah sangat nak ada.......Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-45279089571453910762009-08-21T16:05:00.003+08:002009-08-21T16:47:10.994+08:00Sehari sebelum Ramadhan......kadang kadang kita tak sedar....orang yang baik pun boleh jadi jahat, orang yang sangat jahat pon boleh jadi baik.....<br />Sebab tu bab menghukum orang berdosa atau pun tidak syurga atau pun neraka hanya Allah yang tentukan.<br /><br />Sama juga macam rezeki kita tak boleh claim orang tu bodoh akan miskin selama-lamanya dan orang yang pandai itu boleh kaya selama-lamanya. Semua tu Allah yang tentukan.<br />Tapi...... sungguhpun begitu kita tak boleh lah berserah kepada Allah semata-mata.<br />Kena lah berusaha......<br />Berusaha sahaja tanpa doa dan minta dari Nya pun tak boleh juga.......macam mana nak dapat kalau tak minta........<br />Kalau berdoa siang malam pun tanpa usaha pun tak boleh juga.......kalau minta tanpa usaha mana lah datang nya hasil kalau tak berusaha....<br />Takkan lah yang bulat datang bergolek yang pipih datang melayang....<br />Mesti ada perih ada jerihnya......<br /><br />Orang selalu nampak yang senangnya.....yang susah nya saya simpan sahaja di dalam hati.......<br />Time susah pun orang mengeji time saya senang pun ada orang tak senang hati.....<br /><br />Tahun ni second year sambut Ramadhan bersama hubby....InsyaALLAH malam ni balik sekinchan.....sambut puasa kat sana, sama macam last year.....<br />Semoga ramadhan kali ni lebih bermakna dari tahun yang sebelumnya.....<br /><br /><br />Selamat menyambut puasa......Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-77724784496217745682009-08-13T13:58:00.006+08:002009-09-16T15:05:56.625+08:00Good News!!Last Sunday (09.08.09 good number huh?) my dearly cousin, Nur Hazlyn got betrothed with her love one Hairul Zidi. The big day might be end of this year. Majlis adalah sangat meriah even its a last minute preparation. Just imagine the hantaran only started 1 day before the ceremony.<br /><br />Yang paling best nye they only know each others for 3 weeks. Cinta pandang kedua. The story was like matchmaking plan and the idea was from me and my lovely hubby. huhuhuhu. tapi kita hanya merancang ALLAH yang Maha Pengasih dan Maha Penyayang yang menentukan. Alhamdulillah berjaya [terasa mcm the best match maker in town la plak]. Dah jodoh agaknya sebab segala perancangan adalah berjalan dengan lancar. So, this year I tought I only get new brother tapi dapat plak 1 new cousin. Can't wait for your big day.<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">The Hantarans......<br /></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihb6MZSf0fzjkH92CUYW1jgG9TqeeFMBvECSYvahItp7-ZHl0YFD0JZH4af0O5hAf-p9xLE5qXpfcQIkAqjXpauuTVXcr91pRbVOulw1FA_Z9JC7dN4w7KwTUobdkTYo29a8_zgBz2Sjg/s1600-h/hantarans.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 290px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEihb6MZSf0fzjkH92CUYW1jgG9TqeeFMBvECSYvahItp7-ZHl0YFD0JZH4af0O5hAf-p9xLE5qXpfcQIkAqjXpauuTVXcr91pRbVOulw1FA_Z9JC7dN4w7KwTUobdkTYo29a8_zgBz2Sjg/s400/hantarans.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5381957782142558930" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">secocok+sepadan=secodan<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjT_F41rkelX71n0lyGntbAGk1UYe2DSJ-1KLJvAan-Cxhx9b_ZqjAgeeTKACfi-jqZGsGUxTfEAU0TswpMHWwxYTqJf_fthRfFGNuJoAqRgLdxYTEaJ4ap5WlRRLMyYqflnDWqwjLr4gM/s1600-h/alyn+zidi.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 266px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjT_F41rkelX71n0lyGntbAGk1UYe2DSJ-1KLJvAan-Cxhx9b_ZqjAgeeTKACfi-jqZGsGUxTfEAU0TswpMHWwxYTqJf_fthRfFGNuJoAqRgLdxYTEaJ4ap5WlRRLMyYqflnDWqwjLr4gM/s400/alyn+zidi.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5369325127291588162" border="0" /></a><br />Finally she has the ring.<br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMLGjWgn78ke6OqtO6gxCXTRwrFjAU5scnHNCoTMqHLVAapeNE4vd0qcD35YgbUYqbThRWkdVANdTaTyRpy6wcXvDw5z5puR-S_2YQ68tNvVvCJT3XnAkODHhaj9CiLoS7YGnqbI6yKZw/s1600-h/alyn.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 266px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMLGjWgn78ke6OqtO6gxCXTRwrFjAU5scnHNCoTMqHLVAapeNE4vd0qcD35YgbUYqbThRWkdVANdTaTyRpy6wcXvDw5z5puR-S_2YQ68tNvVvCJT3XnAkODHhaj9CiLoS7YGnqbI6yKZw/s400/alyn.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5369324508734153474" border="0" /></a>The Happy Family<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFTZaj-OeBArzU-gCn3zrr9GceqFoYhL8jxQ_ygxXEJ-yxxNDBqWVB3WIOppGryYsW2dLM5TvZUCXoEhXe4653xTeyqWsUp2QSM0olfSDVvbYwuv8ZBw4jlwjs0XT7TgJI8cq1T9eDL_c/s1600-h/happy+family.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 266px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjFTZaj-OeBArzU-gCn3zrr9GceqFoYhL8jxQ_ygxXEJ-yxxNDBqWVB3WIOppGryYsW2dLM5TvZUCXoEhXe4653xTeyqWsUp2QSM0olfSDVvbYwuv8ZBw4jlwjs0XT7TgJI8cq1T9eDL_c/s400/happy+family.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5369329576799881058" border="0" /></a>Sungguh excited menuggu si dia...<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNZGc1i5ndVo3I02Ns6k81a2OnieK_SKuWzbxfIXdJ3zdhtRuOfQFQi4IEJMWW2tD0Ys9lYCuDpfQY5pz8nfkTFvbkM7qtNlq-YVC5LIZ39tj_es-FD1VaKJSbCvkUgklsWcgisvelDmQ/s1600-h/alyn.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 267px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNZGc1i5ndVo3I02Ns6k81a2OnieK_SKuWzbxfIXdJ3zdhtRuOfQFQi4IEJMWW2tD0Ys9lYCuDpfQY5pz8nfkTFvbkM7qtNlq-YVC5LIZ39tj_es-FD1VaKJSbCvkUgklsWcgisvelDmQ/s400/alyn.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5369631929140966066" border="0" /></a><br /></div>Second good news plak my hubby's little fish dah dapat baby. Hahahahhaa......yesterday he was super sexcited told me the news. Baby fish pon baby fish la kan......Baby juga....hopefully lepas ni I plak dapat my own baby. hehehheheh.......<br /><span style="font-size:85%;"><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic;">P/s to alyn & her FH :<br />Congratulation to you darling..Semoga sampai ke akhir hayat ye......Loads of love from me n hubby</span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-71258542361817220692009-07-27T09:24:00.003+08:002009-07-27T09:52:50.615+08:00ARrrghhhh......I have decided to quit from my current job. Tp Mr hubby said after raya or if in our xxxxx x account reaching our target....which is i'll tender my resignation letter end of next month.....<br />Lagi 2 hari pon gue dah rasa sengsar lagikan 2 month......If nak reaching our target terpaksa la berkerja keras ke arah itu....and as an understanding wifey me believe that we can do it....sabar azy sabar azy sabar azy.......<br /><br />Adalah setiap hari terasa macam nak bunuh orang....Which I never felt like this before dalam bab bab kerja ni...rasa mcm nak suicide pon ada......<br />Maybe blog ini ada unsur2 luahan hati yang tak best.....Sebab terpaksa sabar dah menahan rasa nak bunuh orang......Terpaksa sabar demi orang yang di sayang....hua hua hua hua....<br /><br />Oh ada good story.....but i cant tell you now.....when i do have some spare time i will update the good story ok???Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-50293359978023450532009-07-21T11:11:00.002+08:002009-07-21T13:21:22.333+08:00Sempoi.........Smalam rasanya adalah hari yang agak penat walaupun tak buat apa-apa. My gentleman offer to cook for dinner. Best kan?? I love his fried rice tapi smalam adalah dinner makanan yang cepat dan mudah.<br /><br />Lately dah rasa macam bosan nak keje. Bosan gile nak keje sini dah, nothing excites me anymore tapi ada suara-suara yang mengatakan at my age there's not a time for choosing a job nor jumping to another job sebab ia adalah pattern yang sama. makan gaji. pusing pusing itu je la. Kene cari oppurtunities utk generasi akan datang.<br /><br />Tetibe dah terasa macam looser la plak sebab tak de 1 pon preparation untuk benda tu semua. nothing and Zero. Macamana nak buat? Kene activate plan lagi 1 as a back up plan. Adakah saya menjual karipap? sebab roomates aku kata dulu karipap aku best. hahahahaha....... tekak roomates aku sama ke mcm tekak org lain. ntah ntah org kata karipap aku rasa mcm sampah.<br /><br />Akan difikirkan kemudian dan akan membuat 1 keputusan yang akan kejutkan semua orang espeacially emak dgn ayah. emak dgn abah sure geleng kepala.<br />aku?<br />buat bodoh sudah.......as long as i am happy...sure korang pon happy kot.....<br />ye ke?<br />hahahhahahhahaa.......terasa mcm evil la plak kan.....<br /><br />Bila la aku nak jadi angel.......<br /><br />Nasib baikla dapat mr hubby yang penyabar.....<br /><br />aku adalah sedang mencari momentum diri aku ini dan self esteem yang tah mana mana tah larinya......mari mari cari......<br /><br />huhuhuhuhuhuhuUnknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-40285782096735703592009-07-15T14:51:00.002+08:002009-07-15T15:11:25.130+08:00When I craved for.......Finally dapat jugak makan kari kepala ikan. I was craved for it after me and my family went to Penang for sending my younger sister, Afiqah to Uitm Bukit Mertajam. Tapi Penang punya kari ada lain sikit...kesedapannya tak dpt di nafikan....memang sedap......menjilat jari.....<br />Yang best pasal Penang ialah kari dan jeruks nya......mmg la mcm pening tgk mak saya membeli belah jeruk sahaja.......tu pun ntah berapa kali nak patah balik.....kejap kejap hilang.... rupanya patah balik pi bli jeruk tu lagi....<br />ramai sangat kah kawan ayah dan emak???<br />kalau ramai pon...perlukah dia memberi semua sahabat handai dan saudara mara yang dia kenal???<br />Perlukah???<br />Ye lah aku pun kawan 2 3 ketul je.......<br />Neighbour depan rumah yang baru masuk 2 hari lepas jenguk muka pun belum.....<br />Pasti dia kelaparan setelah membau wangi kari kepala ikan ku semalam..........<br />huahuahuahua(evil laugh)<br />Okla lepas ni ada la orang yang aku nak pass pass makanan especially time puasa....<br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 204, 204); font-weight: bold;font-size:78%;" >Moral Of the Story: "Sayang nanti kita pi Penang lagi ye????"<br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><br /><br /><br /></span></span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-60509721251337308192009-07-06T10:00:00.002+08:002009-07-06T10:11:30.736+08:00When my dearly friend got engaged<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi86fTwQLyQSLRvJK_YRZCEdr533LwNTbZHDRJYzMvKagsRkUx2fV0D7HVhsd7hVzzsT_4bkRPaEU9nd6Lex_ZBHuNSIRvQ2B7IPsoHGcgXBppS6A5DYCjTwws1w4jENms8OSpG2d2c6e0/s1600-h/shot.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 275px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi86fTwQLyQSLRvJK_YRZCEdr533LwNTbZHDRJYzMvKagsRkUx2fV0D7HVhsd7hVzzsT_4bkRPaEU9nd6Lex_ZBHuNSIRvQ2B7IPsoHGcgXBppS6A5DYCjTwws1w4jENms8OSpG2d2c6e0/s400/shot.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5355163830515784594" border="0" /></a><br />I feel sangat happy even I can't make it to the day tapi saya sudah rasa bertapa gumbiranya hati kawan saya.<br />Adalah lebih excited saya menunggu hari yang betul-betul menukar statusnya sambil berdiskusi tentang preparation yang dia perlu ada semasa hari itu.<br />Wah~~gumbiranya........<br />tak sabar menunggu si manees ini naik pelamin<br /><br />Congratulation Shabana Maneesa dan Syaiful....<br />Jangan tunggu lama-lama tau.......<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjEM762BRLK-f_FSuG0f-ZUPSE-BnE-lx5DtIhtWTGzbWguUehtmdrEQN3QOVqOXHAH-nKQ98Z1kvzLfglifkpRWGV5_H7RqYKSDazC69275XpYqhP-RrD9ohdHb3yxZcgBMuoCyqreJY/s1600-h/shotty.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 275px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgjEM762BRLK-f_FSuG0f-ZUPSE-BnE-lx5DtIhtWTGzbWguUehtmdrEQN3QOVqOXHAH-nKQ98Z1kvzLfglifkpRWGV5_H7RqYKSDazC69275XpYqhP-RrD9ohdHb3yxZcgBMuoCyqreJY/s400/shotty.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5355161794930130770" border="0" /></a>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-60147637784059863662009-06-23T11:36:00.002+08:002009-06-23T17:12:11.505+08:00HOW? SHOULD I?1. How did you handle when having a bad day? Bad mood? Bad people? Bad me?<br /><br />2. Me always go for the wrong choices and now it is hurting me bit by bit. Nak diluah mati bapa nak di telan mati emak. I have this kind of situation. How to overcome all this? Should I start all over again? Should I lie to myself everyday?<br /><br />3. Kita selalu tanya "Layakkah kau pada diri aku" tapi pernah ke kita tanya "Layakkah kita untuk dirinya?"<br /><br />4. How you know when you were ready for everything?Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-78042439680579508292009-06-11T17:03:00.004+08:002009-06-12T09:12:58.002+08:00Kuah dan nasiYesterday I went to my dear cuzzy place.....after a few session of chit chatty and dinner we plan to hang out somewhere nearby their house. I really had a very good time with them. Having a good laugh is very therapy when you found your work tiring you.<br /><br />I used to live with them while I was working in KL previously. While I stay with them Raihan (youngest brother) he was a young boy (still sekolah lagi pun) tapi sekarang telah mejadi seorang yang berjiwa sangat besar. I was impressed la sebenarnya, and now he's coming with his brilliant idea towards business and making money.<br />Gua memang tabik kat lu bro....... and I see a lil something inside of him.....in a good way la kan.....<br />Now i understand mana tak tumpah nya kuah kalau tak ke nasi....<br />ye la "nenek kami" seorang manusia yang tegar dalam mencari sumber sumber rezeki ni.....<br /><br />Mungkin sebab dia adalah cucu "nenek tompok".<br /><br /><br /><br /><em>"Hidup cucu nenek tompok!!!!"</em><br /><em></em>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6937630983316333290.post-11699593638529647172009-06-01T15:31:00.006+08:002009-06-01T16:22:11.308+08:00Cerita ikan KeliI went to market on Saturday morning, which is usually i do that on Friday evening sebab ada pasal malam. Sayur di pasar malam adalah sangat fresh dah n murah sebab ia bebas dari air-cond dan tidak di letakkan di dalam fridge.<br /><br />On Saturday morning tu konon nya beli la ikan keli, teringin sangat nak makan ikan keli. Selalunya hubby yang selalu goreng ikan ni sebab tak ingin la aku nak g goreng ikan ni sbb mmg confirm meletop. tp mcm dah 2 3 kali goreng tu ingatkan la dah macam pro la kan....<br /><br />"ala...meletop sikit2 je ni...boleh handle lagi ni"<br /><br />baru masukkan ikan seketul nak masukkan lagi seketul tetibe meletop.....adekh~~~kene muka....baju.....<br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5342268489137683090" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 267px; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxuDpjMHGc7a9KrRINToIz9PsNZGm5EwhpBL9tdMmyHGqt0B2O-Yo6r5NeI5QwyEhnqAfAWECeUne8MtinlTGVkJWVwruogpS7v3J0woLIlQjjpxZxrok3YxVUgqS9lIqah4yBRDyY3JI/s400/3300155216_def3502c6f.jpg" border="0" /><br /><p><em><span style="font-size:85%;"> ikan yg memprotes untuk di goreng </span></em></p><p>you just imagine what if aku goreng ikan tu sambil berbogel bogel lan....atau pon separuh bogel....memang confirm....cleavage aku melecur....<br /><br />At first tak sakit...tapi lama2 pedihnya......then he put some ice on my face....sedihnya.....i put some Bio oil on my face....hopefully hilang la scars tu....<br /><br />Habis la muka ku cacat.....<br /><br />Sekali tengok macam kena belasah dgn laki....boleh buat drama ni....hhahaha!!!!<br /><br />Annoucement to my housemate a.k.a bedmate a.k.a roomate<br />Lepas ni if you wanna have some ikan keli sila lah goreng sendiri ataupun kita bli di kedai yang sudah di masak sahaja....lebih selamat<br /><br /><br />Sekian Terima Kasih</p>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2