Life...

I nearly gave up on my life this morning......every week ada je problem yang baru... Hoping for someone to pujuk me and comfort me... tapi hampeh.... pujuk diri sendiri....
again
and again....
and again....

Why I can't have what I really want???
I pray hard....
I do my best.....

If someone live their life happily every single day....please show me how?

Boleh ke someone offer me jadi my sunshine everyday???? Tired of being me.....

Suddenly I received this forward e-mail which is really made my day and made me think twice.

Life gives Answers in Three ways,
It says YES and gives Whatever u Want,
It says NO and gives u Something Better
It says Wait and gives u the Best

Happy???

I always wonder if i could be happy again like before. I know everyday there are always have a chances to be better. Somehow I am stuck in my very own world.

I feel......
Nothing great of being me.
Tired of everything.
A lot of sacrificing.
A lot of pampering and comforting others.
Too much supporting others.

I really missed the old me. I am so confused. Is it because of the decision i have already made or it has been written. I thought can get my life happy in the end but its even tougher

Masalah tak pernah habis..........
ada je.........
and I am tired of being me........

Pelik tapi benar

Ada 1 jenis spesies manusia yg memang keje dia menyakitkan hati orang ataupon mmg keje dia top up dosa diri sendiri dengan sakitkan hati orang lain. Tak cukup2 dari dulu menyakitkan hati. Terasa perangai mu macam Syaitan pun ada. Tolong la sesiapa beritahu dia yang saya dah tiada lagi dimuka bumi ini..........

Tolong la.....sebab saya rasa saya dah takde kena mengena dengan hidup kamu dan saya ini banyak sangat benda yang sangat dan perlu saya kisah kan.

Purposely private message sebab nak tunjuk yang diri kamu baik it wasn't a good idea because I'd never saw anything good in you. Tolong la berhenti berlagak innocent...nak muntah.......Kalau nak berlagak innocent pon tolong la jangan dengan saya.

OK....its even you were changed just keep it yourself la....mana la tau memang Allah dah buka kan pintu hati dia nak bertaubat.....but you don't have to tell the whole world and if you want to lantak la....bagitahu la sesapa except me.....I don't wanna know anything about you..... Letihla.....

If you were happy with your life lantak la......and if you not pon lantak la....ada ke i kisah????hmmmm.....boring kan orang macam ni????I pun agak bodoh dan jahil la sebab sudi berkawan dengan manusia spesies macam ni.......

Tolong la....kan dulu kamu sudah maki2 saya to back off from your life. Kan kamu sudah berjanji pada diri kamu yang kamu takkan mengenali diri saya. Apa lagi yang kamu mahu.......


Please somebody tell him that i am dead.......

Sigh~~~

ohhhhh~~~

Sigh again~~

Try..........

A short conversation between A, B and C

A : In my life.....I always try my best....

B : But I think If you always try that's the best.....right??

C : Yeah.....everyday there's a chance to be better...... :)

11 Ramadhan....

Lately ada bende yang best ada gak bende yg tak berapa nak best. Yang best nye last weekend dapat balik JB berbuka puasa bersama family Johor secara tak lansung dapat makan masakan mak yang sedap banget. Oh ya... masa balik JB hari tu my cousin and her FH followin g us to JB...Kenal kenal JB la kononnya.... Dapat jumpa justin....tp tak best sbb kejap sgt.....banyak bende nak borak tapi.....time sangat limited.....

Best jugak dapat pergi Danga bay....watching zoo at night....macam- macam ada tiger, elephant, horses, snakes (euuuuwww) and banyak lagi bende yang pelik2...memang la zoo tu agak kecil tapi best sebab mood berchenta kot..hahahhahah...sure korang muntah ....lepak santai dgn my love one....kalau single dulu lepak gedik santai la kan....skang ni kene behave sikit.......

Yang tak best plak terasa someone stabbing behind my back.. Sakit sebab tengah control untuk tak jadi pendendam.....Sebab saya tak layak menghukumi sesapa pun.....walaupun dia adalah org yang paling dekat dengan kita.....tatau apa motif dia berbuat sedemikian???cemburukah???cemburu dengan saya yang berusaha gigih???Serious rasa seperti teraniaya.......

Waiting for my sister, Iqah come to my house for her long weekend till Monday sebab Penang Monday cuti Nuzul Quran. Dia dah buat wish list dah nak makan apa for her buka puasa. Hubby might be busy this saturday for a few of appointment. I think i might be join him tapi tengokla....rumah macam disaster sempat kemas sikit2 je....takkan la nak tinggal kan Iqah sorang2 duduk rumah........

Kenapakah setiap hari adalah hari malas bagi saya?Perlukan suntikan rajin untuk aktif semula.......

6 Ramadhan

Yesterday I had my chance to break fast with my family ayah, mak, qilah and nenek. Wah terasa sungguh seronot sekali. They were visited cik zali and stay at cik zali's place in Putrajaya.
Best sangat......dapat makan ayam golek, ikan bakar, murtabak rojak singapore, popiah dan mcm2 lagi la kuih muih yg tatau apa kenamanye.....

Siap sempat cut my youngest sister's hair......

Sangat takde hati nak keje......seriyes....cepat la semua ni berakhir....
rasa mcm dah tak larat sangat2
I really really cannot take it anymore.......

Love and Luck....
Can i have both more and more???
Please........I pray for it everyday.....
Yes... I really want it......I really wish for it.....

5 Ramadhan......

Seriously....rasa memang takde mood nak keje sini dah........
waiting for my replacement...
Kalau ikutkan hati nak blah mcm tu je la kan...tp mcm kesian la plak.......
My heart not here anymore.......going somewhere else....
I'm not in the mood...
banyak sangat bende yang jadi within this month.....especially financial.....serious tak de mood.....kalau la boleh patah balik and make the right choice...kan ke bagus..... tapi what's have been done can't be undone......
Kalaulah ada orang yg boleh mendengar keluhan hati saya........
Kalaulah ada yang boleh meringankan bebanan yag saya tanggung.....
Kalaulah mereka tahu apa yang saya rasa........
Kalaulah ada sedikit kemanisan yang boleh melegakan hati saya.......
Kalaulah semua ni boleh berakhir sekelip mata.......

Semalam visit cik zali, kesian dia.....he was admitted kat ICU Hospital Serdang. He is too skinny...so weak..... Hopefully cepat la dia sembuh...Sangat tak sanggup melihat dia bersama wayar2 yang ada kat angota dia........
Kesian kat cik Jun(the wifey) jugak sebab dia pon tak berapa sihat tapi dia sangat tabah nak tgk suami dia sihat.......Pengorbanan si isteri......

Kat rumah dah sehari takde air......the whole apartment tu takde air.....without notice plak tu....gile tak????nasib baik la ada air yang saya tadah sebab tetibe je air kecik besar kecik besar....
tapi.....mcmana nak cuci baju ni......
masa ni la mengharapkan kalau la ada sungai kat depan rumah kan senang........

Waiting for a long weekend....nak balik jb this friday...maybe alyn and her fiance will be following us to JB jugak......

balik JB....
nak air kathira abu bakar.........
roti jala yang emak buat.......
murtabak yg besar tu.......
ayam percik jugak......

Semoga berjaya......tapi selalu kalau balik JB benda yg kita nak tu mcm payah sangat nak ada.......